What I look forward to…

I was thinking about how much I really wanted to work abroad but don’t see it in my near future, and I still don’t. When I was pregnant with David, I did get a small taste when I did some work for Becas Vallarta. No room for politics or debate, just a whole bunch of kids who needed scholarships to go to high school (and never enough money to send all the kids). I guess the urgency of the work is suitable for someone who thinks too much.. no questions, no permanent answers but undeniably a lot of work to do. I miss that.

Today I had this image of myself as a little child… there’s so much I still can’t see and understand. I can’t see the big picture and I feel like I’m on the brink of something new, something different. But I just don’t know. Sometimes I’m a mama and sometimes I’m just a little kid wondering what I’ll be when I grow up. And most of the time I feel like a big kid trying to be a good mama.